I think I may be ready to go

Now, I am not a quitter, but I have been thinking for several days that I am ready to go home. Today, was the first day I really felt that I would not be a failure if i went home. I have done so much and you will never understand how hard I have tried, but I am exhausted. I more than miss home and really words can't describe this experience. However, today I have had enough maybe tomorrow I will feel differently. I moved to another country and created another life. I know a lot of people experience this, but you know what I love my life in New Orleans maybe it took me coming to Japan to see it or as Ros likes to say I always have to put my hand in the fire. As many of you know, especially those that are close to me that this past year was very difficult. I worried my friends, upset my parents, and was absolutely horrible to Rosalind. For the first time, in a long time, I feel at peace. I am not worried about what you might think if I leave, really I feel I have done what I needed to do. I am not worried about disappointing my parents and I know you will be disappointed. I could only ever hope that you are proud and try your best not to judge me for my actions. I guess we will see. Please do not comment I don't need a pep talk, but thank you. Homesickness is a bitch...